Thursday, September 15, 2016

Holding on tight and letting go...

I read a quote a long time ago that has always stuck with me...

"When my hands are holding on tight to something, they are neither open to give or to receive."

Take a minute to think about that.
What is it that you allow yourself to hold on to?

I had a massage, the first one I've had in years, yesterday...and oh my goodness, just what I needed!
But more than anything, I think I needed the quiet.  
Time to simply think and pray.  
Time for my head to be filled with all kinds of stuff I somehow want to share.

As Jamie was working on me, I couldn't help but think that these knots (and there are so many) are holding on tight to my muscles.  They did NOT want to let go.  And the end result is the pain I've been experiencing from them.  

Jamie was able to loosen them up (and let me just tell you if you haven't had a massage, it's a must - spoil yourself...and try the felt so good!) BUT it's going to take time for them to truly let go...
Because these didn't happen overnight.

I'm good at being "good."  You know, holding it all together when everything seems to be falling to pieces.  As I shared on here, these past few months have just been one thing after another.  And yes, I truly am "good" but the effects of all the stress has unfortunately taken it out on my body.  And it's time for my body to learn to release it all.

I started the process this past week.
God was really working on me if I'm being honest.  I was allowing some situations and circumstances to fog my mind and heart.  

And I was reminded that we are called to be like Jesus.  
Love like Jesus. 
Forgive like Jesus.

And I knew I wasn't.

Just keeping it real friends.

I "thought" I had but was still holding on tight to some things that when triggered, just didn't put me in a good place. 
One knot...then another...then get the idea.

I decided to let it go.

I was so worried about my thoughts or my opinions being heard, I forgot that the example I was setting was even greater.  I even posted this on my Facebook:
This is something I'm working on my own self. My husband is quick to remind me that in the end, will my opinion matter anyway? 

When we're hurt - our initial response is maybe we want others to hurt, too.
When we're angry - we need someone to be on the receiving end.
When we're sad - maybe we want someone to blame.
The list could continue...

I'm working diligently on choosing to love like Jesus loves. 
On not giving up on people when they fail us.

Messy people and all. 

I'm letting go of past hurts and failures. 
And trusting in the One who sees our hearts when others are looking for everything but.

Because, none of us are perfect. We all make mistakes.

I'm thankful for a God who loves us just the way we are but refuses to leave us that way... He wants us to be like Jesus.

Let's be an example of Him!

And that's truly where I am at right now. 

I'm learning that instead of holding on to the things that in the end truly don't even matter, I'm going to let them go.
And I'm going to hold on even tighter to the things that do matter.  
The things that, when placed in my hands, allow me to give and to receive.
To set and be the example I want to be.

My faith.
My family.
My friends.

I've recently started reading a new book, Without Rival, by Lisa Bevere and I'm just on chapter 3 because there is SO much good stuff to take in.  I was even joking with a friend that I feel like I'm back in elementary school just reading one chapter a night because I want to be able to soak it all in.

Last night's chapter's highlight reminded me that I'm right where I need to be.
I'm allowing God to use the good and the bad and hoping that some how through my writing, I'm able to help someone else along the journey.
It's about experiencing it ALL with the One who never lets us go.

You know I always want to connect these posts to us being better together and I want you to remember this.  We have a God who sits with us on the mountain tops and walks with us through the valleys.  Because He knows we cannot go at it alone.  But you have to have the experiences yourself.  Allow Him to let you see things through His eyes for a minute.

Let these words from Lisa Bevere sink in:

If our eyesight cannot even process the appearance of our God, then how could we do more than assemble a stick figure of his wonder? Our words will fail us and we will echo the words of Job after God shows up in a whirlwind of marvel:

I admit I once lived by rumors of you; now I have it all first-hand - from my own eyes and ears! I'm sorry - forgive me. I'll never do that again, I promise! I'll never again live on crusts of hearsay, crumbs of rumor. (Job 42:5-6/The Message)

This revelation of God awakened a hunger for more in Job. Far too many of us are satisfied with a revelation of God that is best described as "crusts and crumbs." We are content to listen to sermons, tune in to podcasts, issue "likes" on Facebook or Instagram posts, and retweet the leftovers of another person's banquet. There is nothing wrong with any of these, but in comparison to the feast God has for you, they are but crusts and crumbs...

... There is a vast difference between talking about God and listening to a God who talks to you. 

Take time to listen.
And then, if needed, take time to let go.
But hold tight to Him no matter what! 
He doesn't want us to just have the crusts and crumbs...He wants us to have the feast!

1 comment:

  1. Very wise words, my dear daughter! Life is a journey, full of triumphs and tragedies. The amazing thing is, we, who are children of God, do not have to take that journey alone. We have a God who loves us more than human words can describe who wants to be with us every step of the way, so that He can bring good from all of the experiences. One way he does that is through the people He places in our lives. He did not design us to be an island. He designed us to NEED, ENCOURAGE, SUPPORT, and LOVE one another through the journey. Each day is a gift, no matter what comes our way. Let's open those gifts with gusto and anticipation!